You can't see me now. You can't see my sadness, but you noticed it. I can't hide it from you. I can't hide me from you. I can't because I don't want to. You try to cheer me up, to paint a smile at me face but it's not working. I will try, but you know the deal: 'no promises'. 😏
I'm sad. Sad because 'Peace is an illusion'. Sad because I'm tired of this eternal war, of going from a battlefield to the next, and the next, and the next... I'm tired of solving problems, of putting down fires, of smelling and breathing the ashes of everything that crumbles around me.
Peace is an illusion, a brief moment of calm between storms, and right now I can't keep on. The next storm is not coming, it's already here and I force myself to be blind and deaf, to know nothing, to do nothing.
That's all I want do right now, everything I can do. I know it sounds bad but that's it. Every battle fought had its toll. Every fight took something from me. I'm mutilated, wounded, scarred. I'm torn to pieces.
I'm what remains.
I'm what's left.
Am I what's right?
Am I the man I should be? Am I man I want to be?
I guess not to both questions but I not gonna deep at that now, not today.
Tomorrow will come... It's already midnight so tomorrow has already come but it's not time to think, not time to fight. It's time to sleep. 'Tomorrow' I will face my demons again... or maybe not. I don't know. I don't wanna know. But yes... you will know. Because there is nothing I can hide from you, not even what I doesn't even know.
Good night. 🙂
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